Posts Tagged ‘high school’

Post # 41

Posted 10 Apr 2006 — by chad
Category Livejournal Import, Uncategorized

So it’s been a while since I posted. Sue me. :D

I had some strange dreams the other night. In one of them I was with my wife and we were leaving the house. Our son was in bed, in his room upstairs (the upstairs which magically appeared on our one story house, naturally) and our baby sitter from down the street was in the room next to his to make sure he stayed in bed. Meanwhile, as we were leaving, Draco Malfoy (have I been reading too much Harry Potter) showed up to move in, which of course we were fine with. We told him the baby was sleeping (back in his crib, on the first floor now) and asked him not to wake him up. Fine, said Draco. We get back the next morning from whatever we were doing and the place is trashed. Draco had thrown a party while we were gone (serves us right for being gone all night I suppose). So we dashed up the steps to the detatched garage to check on the baby (his room kept moving for some reason) and found him, asleep, yet surrounded by garbage, ashes, and cigarette butts. He, however, was none the worse for wear.

Then I woke up.

Another dream I had placed me back in High School. I was sitting in my second period History class, and the bell rang. I had so many books (I had just been to the library and they were nice enough to deliver them to me) and couldn’t carry them all. So I grabbed a desk, stacked my stuff on top of it, and proceeded to roll (yes, it grew wheels) down the hallway while I tried to remember where I was supposed to be for third period.

While I couldn’t remember, I did know where my locker was, so I set off for it knowing I had a copy of my schedule inside. I arrived at my locker and couldn’t remember my combination (thinking back, how many of us remember our combinations from 8 years ago?). I knew there was an 86 in it, but the combo lock only went up to 45. Frustrated, I turned to the girl next to me (who I knew from college) and asked her if she knew where I was supposed to be for third period. She shrugged, and I asked her if she knew what my locker combination was. She said she did and proceeded to open it. Then I woke up.

And then last night I dreamt of trying out for the Green Bay Packers.

I’m not one to normally remember my dreams. In fact, within about 5 minutes I’ve usually forgotten whatever it was I dreamt about. I’ve never been bothered by dreams before. Now I have three that I can’t get out of my head. I’m scared to go to sleep again!

I realized after my high school dream that it has now been 8 years since I graduated high school. Where did the time go? Just as sobering is the fact I’ve been out of college for 4. Where has the time gone? I don’t feel like it’s been that long. To know that an entire class of students has entered, studied, and left college while I’ve been away, and here I am still struggling to make ends meet and fighting with the banks trying to get my school loans at an affordable level. I feel like I’m still in college sometimes, until I come home from work and my son runs to greet me, telling me about his day (puppy, hole, nap, bed, wet, messy, CoCo!). What happened to all the time?

I turn 26 this year. I remember when 26 felt old, but now it feels…so young.

My son officially became a big boy on Friday night. The crib is no longer in his room, and he now has his very own “big boy bed”. The first night was a little rocky as he adjusted to not having the tall bars of the crib around him. And on Saturday he woke up from his nap after 10 minutes and came out of his room announcing he was all done. He was not happy when I told him that, in fact, he wasn’t and he needed to go back to bed. (All done!!! he cried).

And in other news…there is no other news. I’m not that involved in anything else. So if any soon to be Freudians want to dissect my dreams, feel free, but otherwise, that’s all for me for the next 6 weeks (maybe not so long…)

Happy New Calendar Rotation!

Posted 04 Jan 2006 — by chad
Category Livejournal Import, Uncategorized

So lately I’ve been thinking of high school. I’m not sure why, as high school really wasn’t that enjoyable a time for me. I suppose at the time it was, but only because I didn’t know nearly how much fun college would be.

I was thinking about the friends I had, who I don’t talk to or even know where they’re at anymore. I was musing that my 10 year reunion is coming up (2008!) and I realized…I feel old. But I haven’t done anything.

Mostly I’ve just been bored. Having a 2 year old at home is not the way to spice up your life. In fact, it’s surprisingly dull. Don’t get me wrong, he’s adorable, and every day is a new adventure for him, and it’s great to watch him learn and explore and discover the world around him. But he goes to bed at 8. From 8 until I crawl into bed, there’s nothing to do. Can’t go out…no place to go even if I could…I need a hobby.

Any suggestions?

Ok, so that was wholly depressing.

On a lighter note, I get paid on Thursday. That will help. There’s already a line of people waiting for this money.

Le sigh.

It seems like I’m destined never to get ahead. Everytime seems thing to remotely be going right, and I feel like I’m getting back on top of things, and finances are working themselves out, or whatever, things go terribly, horribly wrong. And it results in me being in a worse position than I was before.

At one point, my wife had three jobs. Well, two jobs and a third starting soon. So she declined the third job, quit one job, and was planning to focus on her favorite. And once it was too late to undo everything else, she got fired. “Focus issues” they said. But again, this is life telling me I’m destined to never get ahead.

Wow this is depressing.

I hardly know anyone in Fort Wayne anymore. I feel like I’m losing all my friends to family, which I suppose is normal, but I miss the days of being able to just drop in on someone and we’d go party the night away. Or even see a movie. Or or or or or…

OK, I’m going to end this on a happy note.

Baby Ziggie is talking up a storm lately. Everyday he is learning new words and I’m just waiting for him to open his mouth and have English come pouring out of it (currently it’s a mix of words I can understand and words only he knows). He’s really growing into a gentleman. Somehow we instilled manners in him. He says please and thank you (sometimes it takes some prompting, but otherwise he does it on his own).

Work has started on Baby Ziggie’s sibling (who I’ll have to call Baby Ziggie2 or something I guess), but there is nothing in the oven as yet.

Sorry to all those who are scratching their eyes out screaming “I didn’t need to know that!!”

The Packers finished 4-12 on the season. In response, The Packers fired Mike Sherman (why?? one bad season in 5 isn’t that terrible, esp when you remove 80% of the Packers best players). So now, I think, Favre will be leaving too, since he said he’d only stay if Sherman stayed (could it be the Green Bay higher ups are silently telling Favre to leave?). Le sigh. Which means, most likely, no good season next year either while Aaron Rodgers (who I’m sure is very talented) gets his bearings.

It’s the end of the world as we know it.